Thank you so much to those who commented on my last journal or talked to me in private about what I said in the journal to try and make me feel better.....Your words mean a lot to me.. I still feel pretty anxious but anywhere as near bad as I felt when I wrote the last journal entry.. I'm probably always going to feel anxious about things because I'm generally a very anxious person but I honestly need to learn how to deal with it to the point where it doesn't affect my concentration on my work..It's just a case of working out how to, which is going to take time as I've pretty much been like this for 22..nearly 23 years now..(yes..i'm old..X''D).. .......................................... Also I have some ideas for art that I want to do, so stay tuned! ;3
Also, I may have asked this a while ago, but what types of my submissions do you guys like the most?
Watercolour pencil drawings
Microsoft paint drawings
Fine liner art
Other traditional artwork
Post sinnoh/other fanmanga
I really want to post a variety of stuff but I'd like to hear what people like seeing out of my art :3
Hi guys, hope you are all well..Without getting into too much detail, honestly I have never been worse..I feel so depressed and my anxiety levels have never been this high.. I even had a panic attack..In all honesty, I've just been feeling this way for weeks and weeks on end..It's not just because I have a lot of work. I have been getting help for it but I honestly feel no better. I feel as if I'm stuck and don't know how to get out of it..I have really obsessive thoughts (though I generally do anyway, I pretty much always have) about everything I'm worried about and can't stop obsessing over stuff..I wish I could..People keep telling me to be positive..but I can't.. I'm going to stop there because if I keep going I know I'll go on for 50 years .;0 Btw, I'm just going to cancel the competition to do with this picture --> because only one person had a guess as to who it was and no one else seemed interested in it. Additionally, with the way I feel at the moment and with my workload, the drawing for the person who would win would probably be delayed
Hi guys, still working away as usual, I found out today that i actually get a book copy of my research paper to keep!! I've been quite anxious lately, even more than usual but hopefully things will get less stressful soon..I just wish I knew how to deal with my anxiety.. out of my health problems, it's the worst thing I have to deal with..and nothing seems to be working..I had a panic attack yesterday because I was so stressed..but I need to keep thinking, I'm nearly there.. I still keep being asked about the future..It's driving me mad..!!! I want to think about my workload first!! XD
Btw, would you guys like to see vlogs from me? It's just i did a small amount of filming a couple of days when I was out during the holidays in some places I was also thinking about doing some videos where I talk about topics but I'm not certain about that yet..I sound like an english snob when I talk lol..XDD What would you guys like to see (art wise/video wise..?) That reminds me..I have not done any of post sinnoh in ages either fran48.deviantart.com/gallery/… but that will have to wait till the end of my course...If i remember lol lol and my birthday's coming up in June ..23...I feel so old thinking about it..XD..
Thank you to everyone who has been patient with me with waiting for replies, with my situation atm I honestly appreciate it <33
Reading: Nothing, I am sick of reading research papers
Watching: Neon genesis evangeleon (finally)
Eating: Pulled beef and veg..so tasty
Drinking: Orange juice
Hi guys, just to let you know that for the next four weeks, I'm going to be extremely busy and because of this, I may not be able to acess d.a. If I do not answer messages quickly, don't worry about it as I will get around to answering them eventually. I apologize to anyone in advance who needs to get in touch with me for urgent matters. At the moment, I feel that my work is a priority..yes, even over my art XD You heard me say that XDD..I am dreading this week though..I have a review coming up for my UX design, a system to present to my lecturer that does not show the interactivity she asked for because I suck at coding ;w;.. I have asked for help for this though..and work for software enterprise along with a business plan I have to do with group members *kill me now..* I really feel angry with the group members as I feel unappreciated in the group..It's a long story if you don't know why...well not that long..XD but yeah. My head hurts already thinking about this though I suppose you guys are thinking that I really brought this upon myself deciding to do the course in the first place..which is true, I suppose.. XDD My eyes are killing already though..I just want to finish this course now.. Also just a reminder of the competition I'm running here-It will only take a few minutes of your time-You just have to note me about who you think this wip is of--> and you can only have 1 guess..and you win a free piece of fanart from me if you win!! Keep that in mind!! (read the instructions in the picture's description);3 The art would be produced after I finish my course just to clarify as you guys are probably thinking well she said she's really busy and yet she has time to do this..XD..Atm I don't but I will at some point. I hope you are all doing well, and again, sorry for any problems I may cause by my absence..God I feel like I apologize for everything XDD like XDD
Hi guys, I have been really busy lately and will probably be busy for a few weeks.. I have been devoting the vast majority of my time to coursework and dying X'D..inside X'D I have sent my research paper off (finally)..so I have yet to find out whether or not it will definitely be published..the uni are very particular about what and what they won't publish..If there is a comma or a column that is not right it may not be accepted..it's that strict..;0..I am pretty worried about it actually..but I suppose it's not the end of the world if it isn't published, just knowing that my work is at a standard where it can be published makes me feel that I'm being acknowledged for what I can do :3 though it would be nice to get it published.. I feel so fed up and tired now, I feel like I've been working for weeks on end.. ..I've not been feeling any less anxious either..I've actually been going to the uni's gym to try to help with it(and my weight lol)..which I've been enjoying but I still feel extremely anxious half of the time..I suppose that's just the way I am most of the time XD I so wish I wasn't like that though... But I'm getting there.....my course tutor seems confident he'll see me at graduation..X'D Idk..I'll have to see how things turn out ... and that's pretty much all I have to say for now. .. I hope you are all doing well ^_^
Spoiler alert: The new Boruto next generation series aired yesterday and omg...
This was literally my favourite part in the Boruto next gen opening..;w;..nostaligic feels ;w;.. THEY'RE ALL SO GROWN UP ;W;..DAMN IT KAKASHI, YOU DON'T LOOK ANY OLDER XDD.. I want to re draw this..;3......
hahahaha omg XDD This was literally my favourite scene in the whole episode XD..XDD Everyone's reactions were so amusing to see..XD..(I want to draw this bit too XD) lol I just hope SP don't turn Boruto into Naruto jr though aside from this because this is the kind of thing Naruto would do when he was a lot younger XDDD ..I understand why he did this and later does other kinds of intentional pranks due to him with missing his dad and all but still...I also felt that it was unneccesary to mention that Hinata was scary when angry..That's really out of character for her..I mean don't get me wrong, I love Naruhina but I think SP are trying to draw parallels to Minakushi..Personally I think Naruto takes after Kushina more
and Hinata is the Minato to Naruto's Kushina side..though Hinata cares and worries about Naruto like Kushina did..and Hinata never was intimidating when angry about something,..but that's just what I think anyway..
Despite that, I loved the interaction between Konohamaru and Boruto in this episode XDD
Kind of reminds me of how Naruto and Konohamaru were with each other when they first met and when they were both younger generally X'DD Ahh nostaligia..;w; (spoiler over) Life is going on as usual..I am still really busy with uni stuff, I have been really stressed out, anxious and depressed but I'm just going to keep on plodding on with things and putting in as much work in to my university course as I can:3 .. I will try to create art when I can..and I'll see what happens from there ..I still keep getting asked what I want to do after uni but I honestly do not know..I am kind of sick of being asked to be honest, it makes me feel even more stressed ..I keep saying that I just want to get my course done first and foremost but I still keep getting asked about my future ;0. Urgh.... I hope you are all doing well <33
Listening to: Sgt. Frog - Kurutto-Mawatte-Ikkaiten
Reading: Code ;w;..
Watching: Just finished Miraculous Ladybug
Sorry if this sounds harsh but please do not comment if you are unsure of what I'm talking about or are going to comment with something irrelevant from what I am saying..It really irritates me ..
Listening to: Yuri!!! on ICE : Jean-Jacques Leroy song | King JJ
Reading: Merlin book of the tv series
Watching: Seraph of the end
Eating: Food lol
Series I am currently up to date with • Naruto/Naruto shippuden • Assassination classroom • Gravity falls • RWBY • D gray man English dubbed episodes • Soul eater • Vampire knight/Guilty • Black blood brothers • Death note • Pokemon dp • Free iwatobi swim club /Eternal summer • One punch man • Junjou romantic season 1 and 2 • Mirai Nikki • Miraculous ladybug series 1
Legend of Avatar season 1
Neon Genesis Evangelion
Yuri on Ice
Attack on titan series 1 and 2 (up to episode 8 of series 2)
Seraph of the end series 1 Series I plan to watch if I haven't already and/or get up to date with at some point
Star wars Clone wars
Star wars rebels
Kill la kill
Attack on titan
Junjou Romantica season 3
Uta no prince sama
Toyko mew mew/mew mew power
Grisaia no Kajitsu
Full metal Alchemist/Brotherhood
Seraph of the end (series 2)
Ghost in the shell
Sword art online
the rest of d gray man and d gray man hallow
Full metal panic
Legend of Avatar season 2+
Legend of Korra
Spice and wolf
Rosario + Vampire
There will be more added to this list/moved above as time goes on Please feel free to suggest anime I could possibly watch and I'll add it to the list ;3 Please also in the same comment provide a description about what it is about.. *Take into consideration anyone who reads this that I am a very busy person and getting up to date with these or other anime is going to take a considerable amount of time ..*
Listening to: Sgt. Frog - Kurutto-Mawatte-Ikkaiten
Reading: HTML that doesn't work with the css file connected
Watching: Miraculous Ladybug and Naruto shippuden 500
Eating: Chinese meal
Hi guys, still busy with uni..hopefully will upload something soon ;3..Naruto shippuden has finally ended;w; *cries* ..;w;.. ...so I had a crazy idea for an animation I could do to celebrate its awesomeness....Don't know if I actually will do it or will have the time to do it ^^' but I was thinking of making an animation of Naruto characters dancing to this song (ending 9) from Sgt Frog which is just awesome ;3 ;3..alternatively I was thinking of making a Naruto based drawing or literature piece to express my own feelings about the series as it means a lot to me ;3 What do you guys think?
Listening to: Sgt. Frog - Ribbit March (lit. Kero! & March!)
Reading: Word document words XD
Watching: Miraculous Ladybug+my santity go..XD
Eating: Fish and chips
Anyone who is not interested in Naruto should turn away now xD also this journal is full of spoilers XD ;w; which will be the Naruhina wedding ;w;/cries ;w;.
omg ;w;..Naruto looks so grown up and so handsome ;0..;w;...axsdssdka\fjuwagskjasgjudxv *fangirls* ..I hope SP do a reasonable job with this last ep..I also heard that this episode will be 1hr long ;0 omg I can't wait ;3 ..I have to say , I haven't been very pleased with everything SP has done with the anime (like this particular arc, lessening the sasusaku in Sasuke Shinden..why couldn't they have stuck to the novels?? ;0..) but I am really going to miss this anime ;w;..a lot...I know the Boruto anime series will be out soon but I feel really sad that it's coming to an end now ;w;..I hope they show chapter 700..I know a lot of people will hate me for this but while that chapter had its flaws, it also had some bits I quite liked ;3.. OH AND BORUTO THE MOVIE HAS NOW ALSO BEEN DUBBED INTO ENGLISH ;3 kissanime.ru/Anime/Boruto-Naru… DON'T REALLY LIKE BORUTO'S ENGLISH VOICE BUT I CAN LIVE WITH IT I SUPPOSE..;0/...it's kind of wierd because boruto has a teenagey voice and Naruto still has his shippuden voice though a tiny bit lower xD i THINK THE OTHER VOICES ARE FINE THOUGH..;3 ;D...I heard rumours they were going to make a Naruto Boruto the movie 2..;0..don't know if that will happen though.
Reading: Notes on what I have to do for uni..*cries*
Watching: Miraculous Ladybug+my santity go..XD
Hi guys I just saw this trailer for Boruto Next generations ;3 OMG this looks really good..though Naruto looks more miserable than he does in boruto the movie ;w;though he does look like he's concentrating on something rather than unhappy XD Dx..I hope it is going to be good..;w;..;0 .Probably won't be as good as the original series or Shippuden but I'm looking forward to it...
Also I haven't yet watched Sgt Frog properly yet, but plan to, but this video definitely tells you a lot about the show in a short amount of time XD (also how to draw the frogs lol) especially the fact that the alien frogs in the show have very different personalities XD and are kind of crazy XD..I've learned stuff relating to personality related theory in my uni work XD and it made me think of this song XDDD lol
Random question for you guys...Which of the frogs based on this song do you think you're like personality wise? XD ;3..You don't have to answer if you don't want to XD If you do, please comment below XD Personaly I think I'm like tamama..XD for certain reasons ..XD ...but that's just my opinion though I do think I have a bit of Kururu in me too *inserts evil laugh here*
Also have any of you seen /or are a fan of the series Miraculous Ladybug? :3...I'd love to talk to you about it ;3....I'm up to episode 8 now..<33